Writer reflects on 15 years of Armenian independence

A writer reflects on how his perspective on Armenia has shifted over 15 years, from optimistic volunteer in 2011 to current resident grappling with recent losses. On Armenia's 35th independence anniversary, he contrasts his earlier confidence in the nation's democratic trajectory with current realities following the 2020 war and recent displacement of Artsakh's Armenian population. The piece examines a broader collective tendency to overlook vulnerabilities during the post-1994 ceasefire period, and questions how to mark national celebrations amid "catastrophic, generational loss." The author notes that living in Armenia strips away romantic notions about the country and creates a more complex, demanding relationship with Armenian identity and history.